I don’t know what it is about posting that makes me dread the very act. There’s plenty to write about and spelling and grammar errors don’t frustrate me as much as they used to (though I’d love a spell check feature on the posting page); and it’s a relatively simple process, just open the web form, type a few paragraphs, and save. Part of the annoyance is that every time I save I have to wait five seconds for the page to refresh and I live to save a lot. If I ever forget to save, that’s exactly when I lose a few hundred words by hitting the Refresh button or key combination accidentally — mostly because it’s ingrained from editing HTML all day. I’ll habitually refresh a page just if I’m reading a long article somewhere regardless of whether I’m at work or not anymore.
The biggest obstacle, now that I think about it, is probably my tendency to overedit my writing. I’m never content with the way a paragraph flows or my word choice. I cringe when I read back over something I’ve written and immediately notice how many times I’ve used words like “I”, “and”, or “but”. Then I have to go back and fix it all, but it ends up sounding just as bad anyway.
So, I shy away from making anymore vows to post more regularly. It’s not as rewarding to me as work is now, therfore I don’t feel this emptiness if I don’t get around to getting my daily happenings down for posterity — only guilt. Just as I discovered a way to work exercising back into my schedule, though, I’d like to get back to jotting down important events in my life. If only I could find the time to get out the important things from the past three months like weddings and vacations I might lessen my present guilt enough to move on with new, mundane stuff. But until I write about things like wedding speeches and trips to Chicago, I won’t feel right about blogging my petty complaints about coworkers or my latest crossword puzzle successes.